my sweetest little boy

the cheeky and mischievious side of me

sometimes I can be really serious too..

most of the time, I am the little devil that terrorizes my parents at home (cute horns? my dad got them for me at the Chealsea / M'sia game)

Grateful

I am grateful to stay at home.
Why? I get to be with my son 24/7. Watch him grow.. okay, enough of me blabbering on with how great and wonderful it is to be able to spend time with my son. That is the main reason why I am grateful nonetheless but there are other reasons too.

1) I don't have to drive

Do you know that by driving everyday out on the road can drive you crazy? Its true!! Especially when you meet with all those idiotic drivers who think they own the road just because their car is bigger than yours, those that think by using signal lights are expensive or better still, those that signal right and turn left in the end or vice versa, those that drives as if they are racing with a tortoise and those that think they can just park anywhere without considering those behind them. OH YA.. and those kiasu drivers who are already in the wrong yet they cockstare you and inconsiderately chuck their f**king car right in front of you or try to go so near your car that you can practically lick their window. Yea.. that is one of the reason why I am grateful I don't have to be out on that road everyday now.


2) I get to sleep in unless I have things to see to. (think wife/mother duties)

3) No need to dress up and slab flour onto my face. I can just walk around in tee-shirts that has tiny holes here and there and a pair of short shorts and hair that looks like Mufasa or Medusa.

4) I get to rest my skin from the sun! HAHAHAHAHAHAH those that knows me would know what I mean. Don't get me wrong. I love the sun but if it doesnt include words like beach, sunblock SPF50+ or holiday, I rather be in the shade. *gRin*

5) I get to watch Thai drama at noon. They can be really nice.. mostly better than all those Korean dramas shown on local TV...

I am starting to sound quite 'si lai' right? I feel so myself too but well, I am grateful for what I am going through right now. Maybe.. maybe next year, there will be changes to my lifestyle? Who knows.. *gRin*

What? 10 months already?

Jaden turned 10 months old last night. His milestones at such:-

• Can crawl but will still head launch onto the floor hard, so the only place we let him crawl is on the bed.
• Keeps wanting to stand up by pushing himself up.
• Can see the top two teeth trying to bud out from his gums. (the outline la.. no white signs yet)
• Very possesive over his toys.
• A wai-sek-mao (very curious about what we eat and would want to try at any given opportunity)
• Walk a few steps if carry him by his underarms.
• Loves watching TV programs that has songs in it.
• Very very attach to me.
• Loves anything that makes a ruckus.
• Can wave hello to people
  
• Can bye bye people by open and closing his fingers
• Understands open and close (sometimes for twinkle twinkle little star's song too)
• Recognizes his toys that can be found at toyshops outside.
• Once he wakes up from slumber, he will sit up instantaneously.
• Can say ..iszh to refer to fish
• Knows how to look at the floor when asked where is Cheekie or Cheeko
• Knows when he is about to do something wrong, he will steal glances to see if we are looking at what he is up to...
  

*will be updated if I remember more... =)*

Manja-ing on the bolster before pompom time

Jaden and his 10-month-old pressie from Hubby and I
(PR angle shot) *gRin*

"Look Ma, I blew the candle!"

Road? Air? or stay put?

I was planning the route on how to get back to my hometown when come CNY 2009. For those that still don't know when the date is, it falls on Jan 26, 2009. Its a Monday. So I assume that all roads will be jam thru out the weekend before where everybody will wanna balik kampung. *sigh* I was checking out the air fares tho coz if by road, its a promise, its going to take more than 5 hours to reach Penang and with an infant in tow, I don't think its a good idea. Gonna have to ask Hubby what he thinks of it. By Air Asia, its going to cost about RM400++ return I think? OR it is just one way! AArrgghh!! Should I take it back to Alor Star and go back direct to visit relatives or should I just go back to Penang first, rest, then only travel down to Perlis the second day? My dad would prolly be down on the first day, that leaving my mom behind in Penang... hmm.. nevermind la, ask both sides whats their say. Should it be not working out, then guess its stay back here in KL for me again.. which will make me very sad of course...

Speaking of family, dad was admitted into hospital on Fri nite because of an throat/lung infection. A cough he did not take proper care of resulting into fever outbreak. Poor man! I only found out about it when I called him... =( Anyway hes discharged already... *pHew*

Jaden is growing more demanding every day. Can anyone guess how he wakes me up these days? Either he bites my cheek, tug at my hair really hard or a hard whack onto my face, maybe sometimes pressing down on my ribcage so he can stand up. Yea.. thats how it goes these days. He will never wake the father up first. Its always me until he gets bored that I am not responding to him.. then only he moves on to his father.

Not only is he demanding, he is getting very unruly. His temper can be so foul, that if he don't get what he wants, he will jump in his walker and bang anything his hands can get on. Be it the table, the little toys attached to his walker while screaming out at us. Of course, if I am near him, I would raise my voice and beat his hands. He will retaliate by scolding me back... but usually I will beat him till he realizes its better to stop crying and go do something else. Have to start disciplining already. Can't have him act such at such a young age can we? He seems to stick to me more than his father yet he is scared of me when it comes to me scolding. He bullies his father more since he knows the father can be bullied. His father is the one that is pampering him...

The boy has been eating porridge these few days. Seems to accept it. Had been cooking chicken/carrots/potatoes porridge for him at home while at Aunt Lin's , he had fish porridge. His food menu has expanded. So far, he has tried...

1. Papayas (love love loves it)
2. Jelly (very very low sugar and just a few biteful for him anyway)
3. Plain yoghurt (to be greeted with a very sour face)
4. Mata Kucing (he loves it)
5. Tofu
6. Fish (in really tiny tiny babybite size)
7. Apples
8. Pears
9. Minced Chicken
10. MInced Pork
11. Cauliflower (mashed up florets)
12. Tiny bits of bread (just for tasting sake, he spit it out tho)

Next, maybe I will get him some cheese to try. Guess more food will be coming his way when both his upper teeth sprouts out so he can bite proper. Now he is only learning how to chew his food, that also sometimes he finds it hard to swallow it down.. have to give a little help by making him drink it down.

Got my money now to do my hair but contemplating on which hairdresser to go, when and who is going to babysit Jaden for me while I am out for like 3-4 hours? I don't think Hubby can cope with being left alone with Jaden for so long coz when it comes to communication between these two boys in my life.. sometimes they are worse than chicken and duck because when the boy decide to bully the man, he goes all way out till the man gets so irritated.. *sigh*

For the 3rd time in our life...

Today is our third time leaving Jaden in the care of others for a few hours. *sigh* and just as soon as we left him and drove off, I missed him so bad. So not used to it. Luckily hes in good hands and good company so I guess, that will make him not noticed that both his parents went missing from him for a few hours.

The answer to both Hubby and my question was that would he miss us? Guess the answered revealed itself to us through his actions. Nah! I don't think he even noticed that we weren't there with him.

So what exactly did he do till he did not miss us? First, he has his walker over there. Then, he has a friend his age to play with. Next, he has Barney to watch and that already took up 98% of his concentration.

Aunt Lin really helped a great lot. She bathed him, put him down for nap and then feed him after. Then of course, its playtime for the little boy! Her place is really child friendly and it helps that she is a babysitter to children, thus making me feel much more relieved that Jaden was put in her care but then again, if given a choice, I would rather take care of him myself...

*sigh* like that how to go out and work? how la? I am so physically and emotionally attached to my son...

Xian Xian & Jaden (we are just 5 days old apart from each other)

Da' punk side of me

first, you start by biting the neck

if fail, one can always try the butt (bishop's nose)

or you can just place it right in front of your face and pretend you are wearing a mask (for halloween or a masquerade party of course, if not ppl might think you crazy)

don't want to be a duck mask wearer, then simply just comb your hair back like me and look PUNK! yea baby!

okay, I have given quite a number of useful advice on how to eat and look good, so now, bugger off k!

Done in the name of love for him

Hubby bought back this one huge ass chicken carcass for me to make stock for the little boy's porridge. Have you ever seen a chicken carcass before?
Well, I have.. just did and VOILA! It's not exactly pretty looking ... but then again, its a carcass. Its supposed to look dead looking.. *sigh*
I am just waiting for it to defrost before I rip out the fats and clean it thoroughly, then chop it up to put into the pot together with carrots and potatoes with the magical half a teaspoon of salt or is it a teaspoon. Will go with the flow I guess...

Also waiting for his clothes to be done in the washing machine.. then hang it all up and put the little boy down for nap.

Arrgh.. chicken carcass to clean and chop up aint fun. All done in the name of love for my son. If not, I don't think I will ever go near that thing ever ever again!!!! AARRRgghhhhh I think I will swear off chicken for a while now..

my naughty boy and I

Today is just Jaden and I. Dropped Hubby off to work and tra-la-la both of us came home. Of course, with Jaden putting up quite a difficult situation for me for quite a while, about 1km of bawling till I tore open the new kitchen towel from the plastic and let him play with it. That quiet him down for a while till when I almost reach home, it was just a corner away from home when he started his little crying engine again. *sigh*

Bathed him, breastfeed him for a little while till he dozed off for his afternoon nap and out I come to interact with the world, thanks to Internet. *phew* that also with my mind contemplating if I should make him porridge today. In the end, I did. Now all I am waiting is for the sterilizer to be done, that off I go to pour the vegetable stock into the slow cooker and let the porridge cook by itself. Will just be right in time for his supper.

Just yesterday, my family and I went to Pavillion for our very first time. Jakoon us? Maybe but we are not missing out much anyway. Its not as if I am waiting to splurge all my money over there. What I can get there, I can get it in The Gardens, One Utama or The Curve so yea, nothing much to lose for my family and I. Just that I noticed that everybody out there is dressed to overshine one another. Its like "I can dress better than you do or I can afford to be dress in branded goods compared to you" scenario over there. There was this one girl, prolly in her early twenties in SUNNIES in Pavillion itself, nose scrunched up at people passing by her (she thinks she looks hot, thats why) but to me, just another ordinary Kl girl who tries so hard to be cool. A man that wears the hoodie over his head (raining kah in Pavillion?) and branded bags swinging by me. Its almost as if they were selling at RM20 per bag. WTF???!!!!! Me? I was just in my sleeveless top and skinny jeans, the little short silver heels, a bangle and my trusty big green hobo bag. Man, I was so relaxed compared to those girls out there who tried to outshine one another. Is that really necessary? Hmm... I guess that is the price to pay when you want to be seen in Pavillion.. I don't know much about The Gardens but I bet its nothing short of the comparison to Pavillion, Starhill, KL Plaza, Lot 10 or KLCC. *sigh* The world can really be very very materialistic huh?

Anyway on another note, I am starting to worry myself silly over where to hold Jaden's first birthday party? Any suggestion for a good venue? I need suggestions badly..

and His Royal Wrigglyness accepts

... my porridge.

Maybe a tiny pinch of salt did the trick or by cooking the chicken with the stock and then dumping it into the slow cooker together with the grains of rice did it. Or its just the combination of carrots and two types of potatoes sweeten the whole porridge.

Whatever it is, well, I am going to see to it that he continues eating it and I might just improvise the menu to pork later on...

acceptance or rejection?

My heart and mind is wobbling as I type. Would it be a repeat case?

This time round, I have diced up the carrots, potatoes and sweet potatoes with a slice of chicken fillet, a tiny weeny pinch of salt for the stock.

With the grains are also carrots and sweet potatoes and the remains of the chicken fillet just for the flavouring.

Acceptance or rejection? It is now up to the little boy to decide once the porridge is cooked!

Not that skinny afterall

I am always behind schedule when it comes to accepting new fashion. This has been around quite some time now and I only took to it after believing that I could fit into one of these now. Yes! I am talking about skinny jeans. Well, you don't expect me to wear it when I was pregnant right? or just dive into any jeans shop and try on those skinny jeans with my fat thighs and overflowing fatty waist during my post-pregnancy stage? All those fats didn't subside till like now and its still not fully subsided yet but what the heck.. I can't wait any longer. 10 months after giving birth is rather decent now to buy pants and jeans and skirts.

Went to one of those blooming boutiques you find at places where most women are found ( OLs -office ladies). I think those are one of the money-making areas to establish a boutique business provided they bring in really nice clothings with affordable prices. This one I went to, was intro-ed to me by Joy and tra-la-la both of us went there yesterday.

So confident I was to take two pair of jeans to try. Size 26. Afterall a few years back, I was a size 24, then it went to 25 then stayed permanently at 26. 26 is a healthy number don't you think so? I put my one leg in and then the other leg in.. and then.. OM ##!!@@##!!!! WT _________ !!! I have to literally jump and jump and jump so hard to get all the way in and finally when i get in, I can't button. I held my breath in, suck my tummy in but to no avail. Called Joy over.. and shyly asked her to take a size bigger for me. You mean I grew another size BIGGER?

Luckily 27 fit me nicely. Not too tight and not too loose. Two fingers can still go in the waist area. Sitting down, panties won't be exposed.. okay-lah BUY ONLY LA! Some more 10% and the jeans only cost RM 71. Cool leh? Its a good fit, nice colour (for me) and affordable. Need not go buy those RM300 over priced jeans and still the outcome would look the same. Pants will be pants. Skirts will be skirts. Clothes will be clothes. Its not like buying an ori bag and a replica one. No one is going to look at the clothes label you wear.

So, yesterday, I bagged one pair of size 27 jeans, three bracelets for the price of RM 17. Cheap cheap kan? So happy with my buy. So thankful to Joy for introducing me to that place.

o.Oh and as for that bag? I decided not to get it afterall. I saw the almost same bag, different colour, but same size. I am assuming the material must be the same.. and I tried carrying it. It just wasn't me. Loud and clear -Nope, that ain't my style so lucky for me I didn't rush and ordered it. *gRin*

Duffy -Mercy

I love you
but i gotta stay true
my morals got me on my knees
I'm begging please stop playing games

I don't know what this is
but you got me good
just like you knew you would

I don't know what you do
but you do it well
I’m under your spell

Chorus
You got me begging you for mercy
why wont you release me
you got me begging you for mercy
why wont you release me
I said release me

Now you think that I
will be something on the side
but you got to understand
that I need a man
who can take my hand yes I do

I don't know what this is
but you got me good
just like you knew you would

I don't know what you do
but you do it well
I’m under your spell

You got me begging you for mercy
why wont you release me
you got me begging you for mercy
why wont you release me
I said you’d better release yeah yeah yeah
I'm begging you for mercy

you got me begging
you got me begging
you got me begging

Mercy, why wont you release me
I'm begging you for mercy
why wont you release me

you got me begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy

Why wont you release me yeah yeah

Gonna bag that one!

I have decided not to get the bag. *sob* after hearing Joy's addiction and me, reflecting on how I can be rather spendthrift when it comes to splurging on these online clothings and bags that I would not get to try on first before buying / no refunds can be quite a turnoff unless I really really fall in love with what I saw and know that it would be rather difficult for me to find the same thing out there.

About the bag, well.. I am now looking into maybe asking Hubby to invest in a Coach for me. Gucci might be a little too expensive and that can actually wait when I get pregnant again. *gRin* So Hubby, if you are reading this, we have quite a number of years to save for Gucci k?

ANYWAY I ter-serempak with a bag at One U and I absolutely fell head over heels with it. Hung it over my shoulders and *mm mmmm* could never find a lovelier bag. Its at 30% but it still makes it a 3 figure price but I don't care! I am going to get my hands on that particular bag because it suits most occasions and the clothing I wear.. so tra la la and I hope I am able to get it before the end of this week. *gRin*

Given 10 years back, I would not understand the fuss about bags, shoes and dresses for women. Now? I totally understand. They are like crack to me. I absolutely love these three things... *sigh* I am starting to sound bimbo-ish eh? Whatever lah.. its my blog and its me I am talking about. I bet every girl out there is quite the same as I am.. if not, there won't be any "going crazy" over megasales and cheap shopping at Bangkok, China or branded shopping in Europe. So you know what? I am not feeling shy about my greed for these three things. I am a girl afterall.

We only have TWO baby chairs in the entire restaurant

I was actually considering Izzi restaurant at Uptown Damansara to hold Jaden's birthday party. Was so looking forward to tryout the place and see for myself the location. However I was faced with such disappointment. Such a big restaurant and guess what?

THEY ONLY HAVE TWO FREAKING BABY CHAIRS FOR THE ENTIRE RESTAURANT.

and that, too, when Joy and I went, there was a un-taken baby chair and we were refused by the waitress saying that the baby chair is reserved! WHAT???!!!!!

I was already fuming and that was IT! IZZI is forever blacklisted in my black-listed names of restaurants. At least when we went next door to Umaiya Japanese restaurant, they gave us an option of sitting at the sushi counter where the baby chair can be placed.

So to all mothers out there that is going over to Izzi restaurant at Uptown and you have KIDS tagging along, that is NOT THE PLACE to be at!!!

Not even an apology from the waitress but then again, its the management at fault for overlooking such matters.

BAH!

She made him cry

Jaden is attracted to kids. They catch his attention and he just can't stop looking at them. However, if its the baby girls that approaches him, he gets all stiffen up and so shy that you might actually think you see him blushing. I mean, does he know how to differentiate girls from boys at his age?

Today, while we were having dinner at Amcorp and this little girl (around 2 years old or less) came up to him to want to touch him. Jaden just looked and looked and couldn't even afford a smile until he looked at us or the adults and then only he breaks into this shy smile. So cute I tell you, the shyness level in him is something that Hubby and I don't see everyday because back at home with us, he terrorizes the whole house. =)

Then, there was this other little girl (3 to 4 years of age), which pissed me off real bad. We proceeded to A&W to have waffles. While waiting for Hubby to be done with his 'Dinobots' purchase, Jaden and I went into A&W first. After settling Jaden down onto the baby chair, this girl popped out from no where and started to cling on to the baby chair. At first, it was still okay till I realized if I don't put my hand to firm the chair, she might just topple it over. Then she went so close to Jaden that I got so paranoid that what if she is sick or having some flu virus? All the while she was there, I could tell that Jaden was rather stressed out by the closeness, so I reassured him that everything is ok. Then she have to go behind the baby chair and wanting to rock it. My son couldn't take all of that and burst out crying which he NEVER EVER did before. The best thing is, the mother of that girl was just sitting there looking on until Jaden cried. Then only she called her daughter back. What an idiot of that mother to let her child go harass my son like that! GGRRRRRR!!! Next time, should such thing happen, I think I shall just scold the kid away. Sorry-lah but I am a very protective mother!

need some girly opinions

I need honest opinion from you girls out there.

Should I or should I not get this funky colour bag that really got my attention and the fact it looks big enough to carry all my rubbish.

Hubby says I should just go throng the flea markets and see all bags available and try them out instead of buying this one online.

BUT what if its sold out by then when I finally make up my mind after seeing all those at the flea market and still think this is the one I want?

Dilemma dilemma!!

What do you girls think?

Buy it or wait first?

runny nose and hating it

I hate it when its period time. Its when my nose goes all acting up on me, pimples sprouting out at unwanted areas, tummy cramps and sometimes, rumbly tummy that will end me up gluing my ass to my toilet seat. Now, even as the one week period is over, the whole scenario will repeat itself. Stuck runny nose that makes it so hard to breathe. Its really that hard that sometimes I think I might just run out of air. I have to breathe through my mouth.. and the runny runny nose.. eeew... and the sneezes that follows. I can sneeze up to more than 10 times at a time I kid you not. Ask my hubby, or ask my bestfriend Gwen who likes to imitate me when I sneeze. Sneezing always brings me bad news. It means runny nose to come and I hate it! I absolutely hate it because I can't take Clarinase at the moment due to breastfeeding. Clarinase was really a BIG BIG help back then when it comes to such a situation.

My hair length is now hitting the waist. Reminds me of year 2004 before I trim it short to just two inch after the shoulder. My other niece who shares the same chinese name as I do, well, her hair length is at her butt, so she says. I can't bring myself to let it grow so long yet I sayang want to cut it short. My hair takes a freaking freaking long time to grow so *sigh* dilemma. I have made my decision, that is to rebond it really straight and hope for the best la.. maybe trim it a little shorter than it is right now and then leave it be till like urm... next year before I go do a rebonding session again. I actually wanted to curl it but Linaree tells me that its a hassle and I am the type of girl who cant distinguish mousse from clay from wax from the glossy hair shine stuff.. so well, rebond and let it be would be the easiest for me.

Shit the runny nose that I am having right now that is spoiling my mood to blog more. AArrghhhh!!! Guess I will just have to log off and go rub it red and dry and suffer the consequences tomorrow morning when I wake up and hope the runny-ness subsided.. Sinusitis can be such a pain in the arse! Wonder which one of my family has that sinusitis in them! BAH!!!

Kaima Joy and me

Growing up and throwing tantrums

Jaden, so far, has been fed flakes of butter fish, flakes of chicken, mashed potatoes with minced chicken and diced carrots and he loves it. Now that he has two bottom teeth, he is starting to learn how to chew his food tho sometimes he still keeps them at his cheeks like a hamster storing up food in their cheek pouch. =)

The little boy knows how to throw tantrum too. Whenever he grabs hold of what he is not supposed to (eg: father's files, the DVD player, wires, papers) and we pull him away from it, he will then run away in his walker, eyes closed banging into whatever is in his way, of course with screams at us. Such a bad tempered boy! Usually we will just let him cry out till he knows he won't get whatever he wants in the first place.

To hush Jaden up can be real easy. All you have to do is to show him a mirror and *poof* immediately *silence* followed with a smile. The little vainpot I tell you. Loves to look at himself in the mirror with a shy smile. When we take a photo, we have to show him the results. That is because the little kaypochee will be showing us the "I am waiting.. still waiting you know?" look until we show him the picture on the screen. Then he will either break into a smile or try to grab the camera from us. He is so so vain. The only time he did not smile or acknowledge his own photo is his mug shot from the passport size photograph. That was taken when he was 2 months plus, still looking very round and kinda bald. NOPE! He refuse to acknowledge that that was him himself! =)

He loves taking his bath. Removing him from the bathtub will hear him crying and kicking. Everytime I bathe him, its as if I am taking a bathe myself. Splashes of water will trickle down from my head to toe. Jaden has master the art of splashing water with his arms and kicking his legs in the tub. Sometimes, trying to steal my sponge when I am lathering him with body shampoo. My little boy, the fire pig who loves water. Guess hes ready to be introduced to the swimming pool. Who wants to volunteer to go swimming with the little boy?

Did I mention that Jaden is very curious about other kids? Whenever we are outside eating, and there are kids nearby, be it a baby his age or kids older than him, he will be staring at them and then trying to get their attention. He wants to join the kids and play with them. So cute I tell you! He will smile, flap his arms around, calling out "Aie!!" and then get all excited in his babychair. I have got a little social butterfly with me. The little PR Manager.

He is growing up so fast. Suddenly this month, he wants to do whatever other babies are doing in three or four months. He learns how to sit and then now, trying to stand, which he can pull himself up with support. He is also learning how to take a step or two in front after he stands up. Think he might be able to cruise by the time he hits the BIG ONE? I really hope so but then again, he can take his own sweet time. Afterall he is still a kid and is allowed to enjoy every single second of his growing up process.

The angel in my life

click* clickety click clicks**

Happy 9 Months Old Jaden Simon Yap

Grinning away with my eyes closed

Daddy, you can be so funny at times...

I am going to come and get you I promise!!

I really am going to get you...

Now where did I put my bib?

Let me sit up and imitate my daddy

Come'ere, lemme give you a hug

I'm too sexy for my shirt, too sexy ...

Told you I am going to get you, didn't I?

cloudy

Withering. Fading. Gone. Gloom. Buried.

What they didn't tell you

I can still remember about it as though it just happened a few minutes ago.

There I was, lying down on the labor bed, with my legs in the stirrups, while watching Jaden being wiped dry of blood and any excessive liquid sucked out from his lungs. There and then, I decided to peep under my hospital dress and see how my tummy looked like.

I swear, nobody prepared me for what I was about to see. Not the antenatal classes, not my doctor, not the mothers. Nobody!

I nearly died of shock and depression when I saw what it looked like -a deflated water balloon, a very big skin overlapping nearly onto the crotch. It was an ugly looking piece of skin, where I once was so proud of its existence.

Luckily for me Wee Shen did tell me that it will go away .... in three months. THREE FREAKING MONTHS??? but still at least the thought of it will go away soothed me down of any doubt that I had in my body's ability to slim down that fast.

I was so shy to approach my husband and show him whats underneath. I was so afraid that I would turn him off forever off me. It didn't help either with some people that kept asking why my tummy looked like that.

I slimmed down quite fast in a way but the tummy, well, it did not exactly go away the way I wanted it to. It did not look like any of those celebrity mothers, who looked as if they had never given birth.

Those stretch marks are now permanently etched on my tummy. There will always be a little thing spilling out from whatever hugging clothes I wear. No matter how I slimmed down, there will always be the "sam cham bak" unlike the old me, who had the tummy like a washboard.

It didn't help that I have low self-esteem since young and my self-esteem went from low to Zero to Negative negative. I lost it all.

but if you were to ask me, should I want to get pregnant again, I would say I would. I loved every single minute of my pregnancy and the result that comes out of it after 40 weeks of cooping inside my little oven, I am so proud of the boy! He has grown into a magnificent baby boy that is now going around the house pulling everything down he can. =)

This is just a post to all mothers to be out there. At least I informed you ladies on what to expect after the delivery. Not like what I had to go through, all by myself.

and about all those going through labor without drugs, well, if you don't have any high threshold of pain, do take my advice, go for an epidural. It not only make it easy, it makes your delivery smooth and funny in my case. *wink* (those in the labor room with me knows what I mean...)

Did I mention

he has now TWO pearly whites instead of just one? *gRin*

My darling aunties minus Joy

I have forgotten how long it has been since I last saw Faith. Its eons ago, probably 7 or 6 years ago before my Faith migrated over to join the NZealanders.

Our original group dis-auntied since. Sonia went off to join AMB while Joy and I stayed on in MCM. Thus, gone the assignment groupie that moves like a pack of wolves, that laughed till they drop in lrts, nights getting wasted in Bangsar (clubs were so off limit then since we were all underage and mostly me being the wasted one), the pack that cornered up pussy boys and wanting to give a piece of our mind at rude salesmen. These girls were the ones that companied me to the KJ post office by feeder bus and walked all the way back to college, getting unwanted wolf whistles by lorries passing by. (ok, not all the way back coz we took a cab later on).

I missed our little group so much! We had always said that if we were to write a book about our life stories spent together, it will never end. There will always be elements of dramas in it.

Today, I met up with Sonia and Faith for lunch at the coffee shop below Faith's and my apartment. Missing one auntie who is travelling around Malaysia for shoot, the champion who wears only tank top and shorts when it is raining in Cameron Highlands. Met up with the two girls and their respective partners for my very first time. The company was good. They introduced me their men and I intro them my boy. We all had partners -only my partner was the youngest there.

Looks didn't change much. Faith still looks like the little bubbly girl I knew back then in college, Sonia being Sonia only becoming more beautiful than I remember and ok, probably I am with the much change -looking haggard.

Jaden behaved well while we ate, drank and talked. The only thing he did was dropped his toys on the floor over and over again to see Sonia and I picked it up for him. Ggrrrr..

It has been a really good Sunday brunch for me. I missed them so. If only Joy could be here, then we would all be complete! There will be another brunch where 4 of us will be sitting down again, won't we? By that time, I supposed there will be at least 2 married couples instead of just me =)

Sonia. eMs. Faith

the aunties

Jaden. Sonia. eMs. Faith

the thorns among the rose ?

Aunty Sonia. Jaden




lil Chairman of the Brunch meeting

I feel like

hanging out for a coffee with my girlfriends
going for a swim with my baby
beach-ing with my Joy
eating steamboat with my Hubby (I am so missing the steamboat buffet)
drinking bubble teas
dipping sushi into wasabe and feeling the rush
reading a good book
dressing up and feeling good
threading my eyebrows
learning how to draw eyeliner on my eyes like a pro
wanting to eat the smoked salmon at ikea
having a good steak / bbq ribs
indulging myself into cakes
slurping up tomyams and asam laksa-S
licking my fingers after a good meal of seafood (lalas, prawns, crabs, sotongs... oysters)
drinking chiled beer or sweet white wine ~

Getting so difficult

I wonder does all mothers out there experienced it the same as what I am going through right now?

Jaden, since discovering his latest developments, has made it near impossible for him to fall asleep just like he used to.

Now, he will try to clamber all over me, trying to push himself standing up by digging his nails into my skin, sitting up and then falling down again and then the whole cycle starts. Breastfeeding him has been made difficult too. He would only suckle on for a while before deciding he wants to go play yet he will cry a little after that, indicating he wants milk, but can't stay still for a minute to suckle on till he is full.

He is very tired. I know because when he is tired, he will rub both his eyes but he will just refuse to sleep. *sigh* He is just trying to accelerate his milestones development. It is as if he wants to learn how to stand before his 1st birthday. Its a good thing but well, when its bedtime, he has to sleep right? Its just heartbreaking to see a small boy like him get eyebags. =(

Is it normal for him to act this way? Do all babies go through this stage?

A tooth bite can be painful

Its our second time out of the house today. Hubby have another night meeting at this place where the route there is absolutely jammed up. It is such a bad bumper-to-bumper jam and then, there are morons who drive as if they are on a sunday morning drive. Pissed the shit out of me. I know, I am such a bad-tempered driver. I admit I am. Curses do flow freely and I am sure there are a lot of them out there that has been cursed till their 9th generation. Just kidding, my mouth ain't that foul but you'd understand la. =)

Ordered dinner from the coffeeshop below next to my apartment. I kind of like where I am staying now because everything is so convenient. Delivery service, there is a small little market that sells fish, chickens, vegetables and fruits. All the essential stuff, not to mention there is a Mydin some more. *sigh* and the best thing, I am located strategically 5-10 minutes away from The Curve. Yippee!!

Lately Jaden has been sticking real close either to Hubby or me. It seems that the separation anxiety is kicking in or is he just being a really really manja baby? Because if we were to leave him with any friend or relative of ours, and we pretend to say bye bye to him and go off, he don't give two hoots about us. Hmm.. So I think it might be just him being a manja baby!

Jaden is now trying to reach for things left on the sofa. Got to go get it out from his reach before he eats everything up. o.Oh did I mention that he bit me, with his ONE tooth and it actually hurts? I can't imagine when his two upper teeth and two bottom teeth sprouts out. Oh my.. things parents have to endure during the growth of their child. =)

Trouble sleeping

Jaden now has trouble falling asleep easily like how he used to.

Of late, he has been like on sugar high or something like that, climbing, clambering all over Hubby and I in bed, trying to push himself from kneeling position to a standing position. Guess the internal alarm is set in to start learning how to stand.

Hes been eating real lot too but still look skinny to us. Its ok as long as he is healthy.

He was so cute this morning. He purposely woke up when his father woke up. It was so early and unlikely of Jaden to wake up at such hour. He usually wakes up at about 1130am. Today he followed his father to wake up at 830am so that he can play with his father for a while and see his father off to work. So cute I tell you!

We bought him a remote control car to let him chase around in his walker. Something to take his mind off when he gets bored just sitting around in his walker while we see to our own things at times.. =)

Think if he practises hard enough, he could stand on his own when he turns one?

Hes not Bald, hes my man!