Mid Autumn love

I am one person that is actually proud to be a Chinese. I love all the festivals we have in our culture (except for the Hungry Ghost Month) but other than that, I think I love all the others as they always have awesome food to go with it.

There is no denying that I am a humongous fan of mooncakes -traditional /double egg-yolks / snowskins but yea, the moment I see them in their pretty molded skin, with the savouries inside, its like discovering treasures when I pop them into my mouth.




Hubby, since being with me, has discovered that I am such a big fan of mooncakes, I will 'mengamuk' if I don't get at least one to eat during the 8th month of Chinese calendar. So, being a smart one, he will always try to get me a box to let me slowly savour it. Jaden loves them too, when he was still not on the diet... he actually practically loves eating whatever both Hubby and I love. Truly our child.




What really touched me this year is what my dad did.




Passing over one big box of mooncakes for me through my cousins, he told them that I love mooncakes. Ten years since I left home and he still remembers my love for mooncakes. That was what that touches me most and with every bite I sink my teeth into the mooncakes he gave me, it makes me cry with happiness and gratitude.




It makes me miss both my parents so much who greatly understands me in and out, my preference for which food, what I like and not like... they could judge from my expressions, even if it is not plastered on my face what I am feeling and will always try to make me feel better. They are still continuously baby-ing me despite me heading to my 30s real soon...

I guess, what I learnt through our Chinese culture is that we should treasure our family most. There is nothing compared to family love and that no matter what, our parents will always love us despite who we are, what we are when others don't.

Of course, I appreciate the mooncakes that Hubby got for me too. It is these small little efforts and thoughts that really could etched a deep memory in me. Something that will make me remember a lifetime.

I hope that I will be able to instill these Chinese culture -family respect into Jaden as he grows up. I want him to be able to have a happy childhood memory about celebrating these Chinese festivals like me, because I believed that when you have happy celebrations like these with your family growing up, you will grow up being closer to your family and proud of being Chinese and part of its culture!

31 days

In exactly 31 days, Hubby and I will be holding a birthday party for Jaden and well, invites has already gone out to close family and friends and you know what is the best thing?

We have yet to source for caterers or how exactly we want to have it done. All I know is that it shall be done at home premises and that the kids can go play in the pool before everything starts / while the adults are eating..

and cake.. oh boy! this is really stressing me out because now that Jaden can't eat anything that has gluten, casein, and eggs in them.. lets just say the chances of finding a baker who can produce a cake to that rule is completely zero. I have an idea of what I think I would like his birthday cake to be this year but I am not sure if I can pull it off, knowing I turn everything I touch into disaster!

So well, till then.. I shall be all stressed out this month figuring all these.. and I pray the weather would be lovely on that day!

Uninspired

Its been about two months since I last post a blog. It is just that I am so uninspired to blog as I have nothing interesting to share other than rants about my relationship and that, too, I don't really want to hang my dirty laundry out in the open. Therefore, the hiatus in blog updates...

but I do really need to find time to sit down properly and blog about Jaden's experience with Liverpool vs. Malaysia back in July.. =) so just be patient and wait for that update and hope, I will get to blog almost daily or at least once every two days ..

I need to blog them out too since I tend to forget what goes on in life quite fast these days. Signs I am getting older (in my brains) and well, its that time of the year to start panicking and planning for Jaden's birthday party.

Gonna be quite a tough one as we are going GFCF and well, how to please both guests and boy during that day.

What to say and what Not to say

Was browsing through the net and came across this article written by Stuart Duncan and I find it so true.

There are limits to how we can handle our child, the amount of tolerance we put in but when ignorant people start making comments -unwelcomed ones, that could really blow our top maximum.

My fuse is not very good when it comes to people making unnecessary comments about Jaden. I mean, they could be making jokes about me, being mean to me but I am all okay with it but when it comes to Jaden, I guessed its the over-protective mother instinct kicking in. The most I would do is to stay away from them for good. No loss whatsoever with ignorant people out of my life anyway.

I am not even going to mention how Hubby's fuse is even more shorter than mine so I guessed its best to not say anything to us about Jaden when you have nothing good coming out from the mouth.

Jaden has showed some signs of more improvement after he started his ABA therapy and that really made me proud of him. He is willing to learn, albeit slower than other neurotypical children but his level of awareness and understanding is quite exceptional.

Now that we are starting to send him for Occupational Therapy, I hope we can start seeing more positive feedback from him but well.. too soon to tell as I feel he finds it a bit uncomfortable working with his OT therapist. She uses quite a different approach from his ABA therapists but well, the kid's gotta learn nothing is ever going be coated in sugar and spice for him throughout his life and this is only a really minor glitch in life.

Have you ever?

Have you ever feel that you might not be able to live till you see your grandchildren gets married?

Earlier this year on, I was talking to one bestfriend of mine, telling her how I think that I might not be able to live long. First and foremore, I don't know my medical history -tracing back to my family tree hence I am in the dark about my health. All I know is that I have had sinusitis since young and well, one thing leads to another.

As some might know from my facebook status, that I have been complaining that my sense of smell and taste has completely disappeared officially on 31st May 2011 after I fell sick on Monday, the day before and even when the flu had gone, there was the persistent sore throat that comes and go and well, guess now it ended up with me coughing really badly till my vocal cords are swollen.

I have officially lost my voice on Sunday itself. The coughing was so bad and it hurt that I had to make an emergency appointment with the ENT specialist at Damansara Jaya Specialist Centre yesterday afternoon. TMC's appointment was full till Friday and there was no way I could wait till Friday to find out what is wrong with me.
He gave me a thorough check on my nose and down my throat with the probing light stick, which he made me say EEEEEE and all that came out of my throat sounded like AAAAHHHHHH .. such big difference from EEEEEEE right?

I was sent home with a week of antibiotics, a med and an inhaler and we will see how it goes in a week's time which I have to return for further checkup. I sure hope we get to see an improvement though but somehow I highly doubt so for my smell and taste. Lets just hope my vocal cords will be ok by then. I am advised to rest my voice as much as possible so now, I am in my muted form.

Hubby says somehow he likes me muted. *sigh* Just that I can no longer order food and all that and I have to rely on Hubby to make all the orders. Hubby also commented that Jaden would be so happy to get a scolding break from me ... so its back to controlling my temper and closing one eye so I don't get angry and want to shout at Jaden.

and then, I got so emo today after I went online and check possible causes of my diagnosis and came out with a few that really gives me the chill. Worst case scenario might be due to tumor, either at the throat, nasal or brain.. made me cry thinking not because I am scared but because Jaden is still so young and what would these two boys be doing without me in the house...

*shite* I am tearing up again so I might as well leave the comp for a while and go do some other stuff to get my mind off these.

Just in case, if you are thinking of calling me to ask me how I am, don't bother. As for now, I only reply to sms and you know the reason why. =)

Parents in Town

Mommy came down to KL on Monday, the day Hubby left with WernShen and Justin and went to Taiwan for Computex 2011.

Brought her to eat lunch before coming back home and boy, did she immediately go to work as soon as she put down her bags and got briefed by me about switches, water pipes and doors.

Dad came down and joined her on Thursday and I brought both of them to HoiPeng seafood at ss2 as a compensation for both their birthday dinner. Since mommy has always been saying how she wants to eat crab, I ordered 2 sweet sour crabs, fried mantou, kamheong lala and belacan kangkung. Lets just say both my dad and mom was uber please with all the dishes, of course they were most satisfied with the crab and the fried mantou that went very well with the sweet sour sauce.

For me, it was damn satisfying for me to watch the smiles on their faces.



Unfortunately, Jaden fell sick on the night that dad reached so I could not bring them places the next two days. Instead, both of them were helping me out while I just concentrate on Jaden. Mom cooked a whole pot of chicken porridge for me, and dad driving my mom out for dinner and buying me back dinner so I don't starve. The best thing was, they did not even call to ask what type of food I wanted them to tapao for me, but mom always made the right choice. *sigh* Parents do really understand what their children like and want, don't they?

I wake up to a cleaned house every morning, spick and span. Not a speck of dust in sight. Everything that I asked for is put right in front of my face in a jiffy. Boy! Mom can really move fast. Dad, on the other hand, was helping me making sure that Jaden drinks his water every other five minutes until Jaden runs away or voiced his displeasure.

Jaden, has an instant bond with my dad but he needs to warm up to my mom because he has not seen for a bout a year now. In the end, the little boy stole his grandparents' hearts by planting both of them with kisses before they left back to Penang.

I took them out for a dimsum breakfast before dropping them off at the bus station. It really felt like the old days where we, three sans Jaden would have our weekly Sunday dimsum but this time round, its me footing the bill and asking them to order and take whatever they like.

Finally, I got to do my duty as a daughter, and well, Simon has a part in it too, and that was giving both of them their 2011 birthday present and compensation for me not being there with them this Chinese New Year. *sigh*

I really don't know when will I be able to meet up with my parents like that again and have the luxury of staying so long with them but I sure did enjoy my week with them when they were here.

Came back to the house feeling rather empty, no mother asking me what I am up to and all that.. but well, not for long before the doorbell rang in the afternoon and the man comes back from his weeklong holiday too, from Taiwan.

So, for now, its back to routine work again .. =p

Baby Fever

Yesterday, baby boy's mood was rather cranky. He would seem to cry for no apparent reason. At first I thought he might have not got used to his grandmother being here with us but then, when I touched his palms at night, it was warm and that is how I could tell that baby boy was down with fever.

It is one sure way to confirm if baby boy is sick because his palms will be really warm, followed by his forehead.

The sick boy was sticking to me like glue the entire time he was not feeling well. Holding on to my hands, hugging me to sleep and making sure I was staying in sight of him. The moment I get out of sight, he would come finding for me.

Luckily my parents are here with me.

My mother is an angel for helping me cook a whole pot of yummy chicken porridge for the boy and also making sure the house is comfortably clean.

My dad was put in-charge to helping me take care of Jaden, seated at the backseat of my car when I was driving him to see the paedaetrician and keeping Jaden out of the sun. The heat is crazy today!

Well, I need not even have to say how both my parents have been chasing Jaden with drinking water each opportunity they can get. Its a good thing because Jaden really needs to drink lots and lots of water.

I did have the suppository at hand last night but since Jaden woke up with really flushed cheeks and quite warm a temperature at the forehead, I decided its best to take him to consult with a paed as tomorrow is a public holiday and should the condition did not improve today, I would have been a headless chicken tomorrow trying to source for medicine for Jaden.

Had a big runaround going to two paed's clinic only to find them closed! Pissed the shit out of me and thats when I decided to take Jaden to TMC's paed instead. Hospital paeds are a plenty and they don't close for holidays right? Well. luckily I took Jaden to see the paed.. if not, I also wont know that Jaden's temperature is heating up till 38.9 .... *sigh*

Poor boy.. from 19kg, he has dropped right back to 17kg, which is quite worrying for me. He is not supposed to be losing weight. Oh boy! I really feel like a failure mother, not being able to make sure Jaden stays healthy when Hubby is away from home.

Will continue to monitor Jaden really closely tonight again. Please let the boy recover as soon as possible. Can't bear to see him sick like that. Breaks my heart real bad! :(