Drifting ...

Maybe...

Loneliness, in a way, shows everybody's true colors

or maybe it is Life that made us so busy, we forgot about us ...

Could it be that it was never sincere to begin with?


No I am not talking about my relationships with exes, or Simon.

I am talking about us.

Sometimes a simple hello would be nice ..

" true friendship isn't about being there when it's convenient;
it's about being there when it's not "

C'est la vie

The company was on a holiday break yesterday. So, Hubby decided to take some time off for himself and go catchup with some movies and also to help me exchange some foreign currencies that I will be needing next month. The exchange rates look pretty good compared to the time I had them exchanged so I am really wondering now that if he managed to do so. Haven't got round to asking him that yet.

Anyway, it was nothing unfair to shout about that Hubby got his time off to himself because without him at home, I got to download my songs, watch my drama online and also to handle Jaden (who is much more easier to handle when he is with me alone). I finally got to fried rice with fresh bacon strips (not the one bought pre-packed with preservatives in them; the one we need to marinate it with salt n pepper on our own) and he loved it. Actually, in order to have the rice salty without adding salt or soya sauce, I cooked the rice with his leftover bahkutteh soup so it was just nice and salty enough to be fried together with his bacon strips which I cut up to small pieces. The boy ate it and wanted more. Maybe next time, next week maybe...

For dinner, I cooked him sweet sour pork that tasted not bad too. Something that Jaden will eat without throwing any fuss or resistant. I seriously need to research more GFCF asian recipes to expand his menu. Poor little boy has been eating almost the same old boring stuff back to back but I can be such a cooking noob; ok lah... at least I think I can cook better than I can bake. =)

Hubby went out close to about 11hours. Somehow in this relationship, *touch wood*, but for this moment, I don't have any doubts about him or trust issues to argue with him about. Unlike my previous relationships, even if they just say that they will be going out without me, I would be feeling damn jittery, anxious and curious and of course, I get very suspicious.. but for Hubby, my suspicious instincts as a woman just doesn't start working so I guess its a pretty good relationship that I am in. I can't say that for him feeling the same way as I do but well, what can a mother like me with a child possibly do? Whenever I go out, even if I were on my own and there are cute boys out there, its just a matter of ok, hes cute but so what? I have a cuter boy at home which I love too much to want to share my attention with someone else.

OK, anyway side-tracked.

Back to when Hubby came home and I was just about to put the boy to bed. Both the boys would usually spend their quality playtime together before bedtime. Yea, instead of helping the boy wind down, both of them riled up so much fun that the boy sometimes just refuse to stop playing with the father. The laughter, the baby giggless and of course, after that shouting for mommy for help (either or big / small one) usually if it is the big one that it will be mommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyy, if its the small one, then it will be the crying. *sigh* what will they do without me?

I took the opportunity to leave both of them inside the room while I quickly wallop my supper which Hubby bought back for me and then I came in to the room to see this...

Jaden's Christmas present.. or so it seem...

Prepping Hubby's elbow for a good bite...

Are you ready, Daddy? (look at that mischievous grin!)

Sniffing and then ....

VICTORY!!!!!!!!!!

The boy seemed to have a wonderful time, look at those cheeky grin on his face as he lets his father anticipate the bite on the elbow and the victory laugh after. *sigh* Those two boys of mine can really bring the house down if you let them. *shakes head* and this is all before bedtime. BEFORE BEDTIME I tell you.. and I have to be the party pooper and chased the big one out of the room while I demand the small one to sleep ...

C'est la vie~

Mary stayed out all night

My life on Monday and Tuesday nights are happy nights when the clock strikes 9pm.

Yes, its on to another drama that is called Marry Me, Mary! or Mary stayed out all night. Currently showing on KBSWorld, two episodes a day, so there is no reason for me not to be happy.

The lead actor can be really good-looking at times but I think its mostly the hair that makes him look beautiful. I think I have mentioned him before in my previous drama rambling -Hwanjinyi but he looked so young back then. Now he looked a bit more grown up, or maybe its the fashion that he is donning that makes him looks yummy. But oh wells, another 1987 babyboy. Why do they have to be that young???

I look forward to watch this drama, because, well, its comical in a way.. and the way drama should be.. where all the kisses are so damn fairytale (making you think why is it not so in reality!) makes me giggle silly and just takes my mind off for that two hours. Brings me back to sanity for awhile ... and yea, secondly, the lead actor's hair. Damn jealous of his beautiful curls! BAH! Its only in Korea where boys can look prettier than the girls.

and one of the best things, he sings too. It was actually surprisingly nice to know that for such a pretty face, he has a manly voice. Mmm.. those deep nice ones instead of shrill pretty voices. =p

Shall leave you guys behind with some picture of the male lead and you guys can leave me your comments if you guys share the same page as I do. *wink*

When least expected ...

Hubby usually will be doing his work out in the field, not home most of the time these days because of his job scope. Usually he will come back with tapao-ed food for me or well, toys for Jaden or himself but last night, he came home bearing an unexpected gift ............

for me!!!!!!!!!!

OMG! Yes! It was least expected as the SimonYap clan do not celebrate Christmas. Not to say that we are like holiday party poopers but it just wasn't an in-born tradition thing that we celebrate growing up.

We are much more of a family that celebrates the Chinese Calendar --> CNY / Chap Goh Meh / Rice Dumpling Festival / Mooncake Festival and the TongYuen Festival of course!

So when Hubby came home with a Christmas gift for me, I was reallllllly feeling very touched!

and the best thing was something that I love to have in one of my collections -- actually I have 3 MAIN loves as a female species!

BAGS
SHOES
CLOTHES

and Hubby came back with my first love -a bag. Not just any bag but a LeSportSac bag.

*sigh* How thoughtful of him...

I was just saying a few days ago how I am over utilising my white Coach bag and that it has become more yellow looking than ever and I needed a new bag that I can use almost on an everyday out basis instead of the Coach bag.. and voila!

I HAVE GOT A LESPORTSAC BAG from Hubby...

He has bought me quite a few bags now but it was never on his own accord that he will do it without me asking and this was one that he actually took me by surprise!!!!!!!!!!!! that made me really touched!

oohhhh.. Merry Christmas everyone! I love the holiday spirit! =) =)

Happy Holidays everyone ~

Wishing all of you Merry Christmas and
a Happy New Year!!!

Best Wishes,
~bubbliems~

27

My son just kissed me. My husband kissed me.

My mom called to wish me.

My father remembered too.

Gwen gave me my annual birthday call.

I feel blessed.

Happy Birthday to me.

M4 - Melody for you

New found loyalty

For the last three years, ever since I gave birth to Jaden, life has been pretty routine.

For the past one month, it became even more routine than ever, with me having to prepare at least 3 full meals, a full cup of fruit juice, a fruit or two at least for him to munch on after his cod liver oil intake... and oh did I mention the constant washing dishes that never stops till he finishes his dinner? *wink*

One of my friends commented after I told him that I do a lot more than I used to in the kitchen and my time is usually spent in the kitchen area that I really need to take care of both my hands and it struck me hard. I used to put lotion everyday, caring for it when I was like going to go out with my potential boyfriends but now, after being married, its more like blah blah, like who cares anymore about my hands? LOL but its true, I guess I do have to still maintain lest that man in my life turns to other women..

Ok. I lied about me not caring any longer about my appearance. I am still pretty much a low self-esteem girl and I do feel so much better when I dress up, put on those heels (which has collected so much dust), make-up (though my skills suck major time) and have a good hair day. Hey! I am a girl after all and by making myself appear presentable enough to go to public places makes me feel human. There are many times I go out with my naked face (trust me! bad bad idea to look at me) and t-shirt and shorts and slippers. (I only do that when I have to rush out to buy something that is urgent / nearby / or when I think no one I know would be in that area) and when i do that, I really feel like I want to hide in a hole or something. Maybe its because of those two panda eyes I carry around with me. *ptuiiii* to natural beauty. Have you seen me au natural?

Well, anyway Hubby gave me a self-confidence booster yesterday when he volunteered to babysit Jaden for half a day and I go do my hair. For those that knows me, would know that I only do my hair once a year and well, it has been looong postponed.

So I made my appointment at a new salon and off I went to park my butt down from 1230pm-515pm. I came out feeling happy that the hairstylist was able to give me what I wanted (or near to it) and well, it had been quite a breather for me to be out of the house for once even if it meant these few hours.

I am sure Ms Ho is pretty much curious what I did to my hair, right? Well, I didn't have enough time to have it coloured just yet which I do intend to do. It has been far too long too black as long as I remembered except for the time I had it highlighted 5 years ago but that was a bad move! My bob from last year grew past my shoulders and I got what I wanted or half of what I wanted (half because no colour just yet) and I am aiming to go back to the salon in about three months time to do colouring. Anyway yesterday should have a lot of different chemicals in my head that I need to just go slow. The colour can wait. I am just feeling happy that I found another hairstylist I intend to be loyal to just because I like that he cut my hair and did my hair, listened and gave advice if this or that suited me more.

Yes! I pledge my loyalty to Shunji Matsuo New Generation today onwards until my hairstylist shave me bald or runaway to Timbaktu. If not, I guess I shall just head there for anything that relates to hair from now onwards. I'm sorry, Monsoon ID that our relationship didn't last that long because my Eva ran away and I needed someone to tend to my hair (someone whom I can trust and a salon that is reputable -and also because Shunji Matsuo New Generation has an ongoing 20% promotion that I just could not resist!)

Total damage yesterday =RM388. So go guess what I did. LOL

and then I came back to the house.... back to chasing after Jaden to feed him his supplements because he absolutely refused to open his mouth for Hubby to feed him while I was away doing my hair. I tell you, this boy really knows who he can get his way with. Somehow I don't sound like a scary monster to you guys, do I, that till my son does mostly what I command him to do... its just that I am the stricter parent to him that walks around with the cane and whacking him without mercy.

Luckily the night before I had prepared a full tupperware full of pasta stir-fried with beef and onions. We decided to hit the Ikano Pulau Ketam steamboat, and with us, we took along Jaden's food and water, which was one of the best idea, because he was a hungry monkey and as soon as we were seated, his mouth started munching on his one big tupperware bowl of pasta, and of course a handful of meehoon and beef from my plate. Thats about what he could eat if he eats out but we try our best to avoid to let him eat out if we could.

Well, yesterday was good enough for me to feel a little free and now its back to being a full-time mother again until I head down to Sg next week by myself for a few hours (Jaden's Dr E's appointment). Woo hoo~ somehow I feel bad by saying this but I do love it when I get a few hours to myself like these...it really helps take off the everyday bits of stress in life.. I am not saying that I am really stressed out like others are but you know what I mean.. a little time to ourselves sometimes just helps us to stay sane. =) for me sometimes a cuppa hot tea can be enough for me to re-start my engine again after a 5-10 minutes break of mindrest and just tea.