am smiling but..
am really feeling very low at the moment.
am feeling scared of every single minute there is.
am feeling like a failure for feeling this way.
am wanting to prove that I can be a successful, good mother but there is fear...
am feeling frustrated with ownself for not being able to understand baby.
am feeling psychologically tired about being a total failure.
am wanting to be there to help Hubby but mentally and physically unfit to..
am needing help but yet refuse to admit am weak.
am wanting to shower the 'babies' with attention but fear for germs on Jaden.
am needing to feel cuddled and hugs from Hubby yet I think I can be strong
am feeling the need to be strong for family
Help.. I am breaking down...
p/s: post-natal depression?
