Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Friday, February 11, 2011

Delay

I know I am supposed to blog about the Super Junior Super Show III concert that I attended in Singapore but somehow I am not inspired to quickly blog about it just yet..

and as for my bestfriend's wedding... well, I am feeling so medicated up and suffocated with all the few depressing days of Chinese New Year and then the surgery that left me feeeling allllllll tired-like all the time at the moment.. so well, I guess I will be taking some time off blogging..

Sorry.. =(

But no worries, I will surely blog about those two! So watch out for photos, Ms Ho! although I think I took more video this time round..

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Breast Lump removal

I am not sure how long I had this lump. It felt just perfectly normal to me, like it was supposed to be there> I don't even remember how it got there but should be sometime after I started breastfeeding or stop breastfeeding.

However, it got to my attention when it started hurting me from inside out until I could feel the hard lump or the nerve making an appearance on the top side of the breast.

After two three months of enduring the pain, I could not take it any longer, worrying each time what it was that hurts me so and so I decided to let the professional take over.

It was time to head over to the doctor and asked for their professional diagnosis.

First, I headed over to my gynae because I did not really know where to start and since I had to do my annual pap smear test, might just as well and he referred me to his colleague, who specialises in lumps, Dr Kwan.

Dr Kwan then checked me thoroughly with the presence of a female nurse. He then sent me for an ultrasound scan of the breast to find out if it was a lump or two and how big it was inside me.

Turned out to be about3.8cm big in me and he gave me two options. To take a needle poke test or surgery to remove the whole thing and sent it for testing. Dr Kwan was actually very informative and patient with someone like me, such a bimbo when it comes to understanding scientific terms and all sorts, so don't ask me if it is malignant, benign or cystic. I still don't know the difference between malignant and benign till now!

I opted for surgery as that would mean removal of the whole thing.. TAKE IT OUT OF ME!!! and also I hate needles!

My doctor was nice enough to let me choose the date I wanted for surgery and I chose the day he begins work back after Chinese New Year. Well, also so I can attend Gwen's wedding without any wound dressing to worry about.

I drove to the hospital alone, which was just ten minutes away from my place. I got myself admitted into Tropicana Medical Centre with the admission letter my doctor wrote for me.

The service was superb! Top notch! Nurses were a cheerful bunch! My doctor came round about 9am to draw on me where he would cut me up. I felt like a pig going onto the slaughter table. =)

The anaesthesia doctor and the staff in the Operating Theatre too, were a cheerful bunch and well, I didn't even know how they knocked me out. All I knew was the lady calling my name, and everything was over.

My doctor was a caring one. He came round at least twice to check on me that day. There goes my money too! LOL just kidding but I really appreciate the service given by TMC's doctors and staff.

Well, one thing lead to another. When I was put under GA, my heartbeat went a little cuckoo for awhile and gave them all a scare but it was fine throughout the surgery and when they were about to end the surgery, my heartbeat did a little jiggy again. So Dr Kwan informed me when he came by and asked if he could refered me to the heart specialist to look into the matter, just to be safe... just in case this is the tip of the iceberg case.

The heart specialist, Dr Haizal came by about 830pm and told me about everything I need to know and asked them to send me for an ECG scan and Echogram the next morning because my earlier ECG scan still did a jiggy. It showed a T-Wave and boy, they were all surprised that I was only 27 and not 72.

They then decide to attach a holter to me to monitor my heartbeat for the next 24 hours just to make sure that there is nothing to really worry about my heart status. My echogram however, did show a beautful four room.. don't ask me what room but I remember I did learn about it in my biology class. I just didn't really pay attention.. but the only thing is that the echogram showed a very minor leakage when the valve is closing. Hhrrummpph!

BUT they did mention that that was nothing really big to worry about. Pretty common sometimes and Dr Haizal just have to test my IQ by asking how many beats does a heart beat in a day. *sigh* I feel so bimbotic! LOL

Anyway, I got discharged the next day after surgery as I seemed all fine, no fever and no more vomitting. Talk about vomitting, I think I started vomitting right after they wheeled me back to my ward room. All the water, milo, some porridge and last, the anti-vomit medicine they gave me.. that felt really so bitter that even the sweet pandan jelly didn't help at all.

Luckily for me, I had two kind visitors who provided me food and drinks. Joy, who came earlier to visit me and brought me vitagen and ribena! Yay! Something that really helped me got by my night, clearing all the bitter taste at the back of my throat and XiuYi who came over with McD even when it was already 11pm and she stayed in DJ.

I was really grateful for what both of them did for me. Don't ask me about my husband because he was busy taking care of Jaden and God forbid, I forbid him to bring Jaden to hospital ground just in case the boy catches any unwanted bacteria and get sick himself. So, it was rather unkind when one friend of mine commented that my husband should come no matter what.

My husband has the responsibility to keep the boy healthy while I am recuperating in the hospital and I don't need the boy to fall sick and add on to my discomfort. Well, I guess that was the last call I will ever make to that friend of mine because well, I learnt that the saying about true friendship, those you can count on and those you can't is really true.

YuMay did stop by in the morning before she went for work and well, helped me out when I was ready to be discharge. *sigh* God bless these three girlfriends of mine!

I had to go back the next day to remove my holter and to see Dr Kwan again, so he can check on my wound and also help clean and change the wound dressing to a water-resistant one so I could bathe in ease.

Next appointment, next week - and this time, both with Dr Haizal and Dr Kwan.

I really would like to sing high praises about TMC and their services. I can't say it enough. Of course, the price paid did not come cheap but well, they were worth the money paid with smiling, ever eager staff trying to make any discomfort I had better!


Sunday, February 6, 2011

Chinese New Year 2011

... this year just was not something what I expected.

I, sort of, instead of looking forward to this one festive season which I loved so much because it means 'family meetings, laughter and family gossips together' just was not there.

Every year, ever since I got married, I missed my northern Perlis tradition of the Loo family getting together, us, cousins on one table while the elderly on the other eating away the scrumptious meal the wives of the Loo's family put together.

Then we will either settle into playing fireworks or grouping upstairs to have a mini gambling sessions comprising of RM0.20 onwards.

The scramble in the morning to get ready in time to go to our grand-aunty's house to meet up with the rest of the family, and then back to the youngest uncle's house for lunch and the eldest uncle trying to sing us deaf!

The house visits of my mom's side -first uncle/aunty to the last aunty in the Tan clan. The food served on the table, ever so inviting.. *sigh* the laughter, the pressuring questions for the young ones going into college, or those who are not married yet or those who have not have children, seeing them squirm looking at each other for help to escape the grilling of the elderly. Twas' was fun!

If only I learnt to appreciate all those years while I could.. now, married into the Yap clan, its a totally different whole new aspect to me. Its as if, this festive season is just another weekend -just a longer weekend than usual.. There is no such closeness compared to my side of the family and I really hope Jaden won't grow up in such an environment. It sucks not to have such close bond.

I may not be sharing the same blood but I am loved and cared for much more than those that claimed blood runs thicker than water.

Somehow, I feel very lonely this Chinese New Year. It doesn't help with the gloomy weather and the lack of festive cheer, or maybe its because we grew up and these things just does not give an impact compared to when we were kids?

If Chinese New Year is going to be like this from now onwards, I have better make plans for all my future Chinese New Year to come. Why consider to celebrate with people who don't really give two hoots about family? My resolution for 2012 Chinese New Year is to bring Jaden home with me to Penang / Perlis to celebrate with my side of the family instead.

Call me rude, call me ungrateful, but its just not nice celebrating this one happy festive season in KL. It sucks big time!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Year of the Rabbits

2011 in the Chinese calendar belongs to the year of the rabbits and that is what we will be having for 2011.

My baby girl Cheekie is finally pregnant, although it was a shotgun kinda thing as we were not planning for her to get pregnant throughout her life but well, guess Cheeko got past us steathily and got to her before we could get him off her.

How we found out was when I took her to hands 'n' paws veterinary clinic at aman suria and after a thorough check and an ultrasound, we saw three heartbeats down at her abdomen and well, she is lactating. Since she was malnourished as she was no longer interested in her pellets, the doctor gave us multivitamins and a concoction to boost her appetite.

She looks much more cheerful now, and she is pooing more now compared to the last two weeks.. yay! hopefully she will keep this up, increase her appetite and may the vitamins help give her all the strength and health she needs to deliver safe, stay safe and have a bunch of good litter out of her.

Cheekie is in her mid-pregnancy stage now and guess in about 2 weeks or so, we will be able to see her become a mother. Touch wood but I really hope she will have a safe delivery! I hope she will only be in labour after my Singapore trip and not when I am not at home. I don't think Simon will be able to handle it all by himself when he has his hands full already, just by handling the little boy.

We actually do not plan to keep the babies. Am thinking about either giving it away to friends who loves rabbits and know how to care for them or giving them away to the petshop.

Simon is just scared that the babies' luck will not be as good as they will be in our home but well, there is really no space to make for more rabbits. Having those two is more than enough in this household. *sigh*

What a way to usher in 2011 yea? =)

Have a hopping good Chinese New Year!!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Mr Yap turns 18

Mr Yap turns 18 today, or so he thinks. *sigh* I guess when someone reaches a certain age, they just go into denial that these numbers are going up.

Anyway, I know deep down inside that Jaden and I would not be able to celebrate Mr Yap's birthday with him but I did not want him to feel as if it was just another day. He has 364 days to feel that way but I do believe that a birthday must be celebrated, at least with a cake to blow out the candles so the birthday person can make a birthday wish.

Cheesy, isn't it but I really do believe in birthday wishes, that is why I always stressed that there must be a birthday cake no matter what, small or big, bite size or not that comes with a candle. =)

I decided to give him a surprise dinner with his work friends, whom he has been hanging quite a bit with for all the drinking, late night prosperity burgers and karaoke sessions. I emailed them early January to asked if they are free during the 19th Jan dinnertime and if they would like to attend the dinner.


Then, after I got all the green lights from the boys, I called the restaurant and made reservations, have them emailed over the drink and food menu. I let the boys pick their own main course while I picked the appetizers and the 'surprise'.

The night before, I finally got to give Mr Yap his birthday present which I have bought since August last year but well, that won't be seeing any light until his 2007 birthday present is used till it tears. I have a penchant to have always wanted to get him something like that. I actually was planning on an LV but then again, when YC was in Paris, he already got Gwen and I two LV bags and Paris boutique only allow one passport one purchase policy. Damnit!

Maybe next time...

Anyway, I know Mr Yap was suspecting something but I am very sure he didn't know what it was. Any idiot that knows me would know that his friends will be there of course, but how its gonna be celebrated, he didn't know.



I sent him up the restaurant while I told him I needed to go pick something up with Jaden first, which is around the corner and we are already late for our reservations... so the Birthday Boy went up the stairs and well, the rest is history..




Well, I did go pick something up with Jaden. We went to pick up the birthday cake and have the restaurant manager come take from me from the car... bet they didn see the cake coming? or maybe they didnt see the babe coming... =) =)



All in all, it was money well spent to see my big baby happy...

Now, that this is done, shit! Its time I start thinking of something new for next year... =) or maybe I will just cook this time round when 2012 comes. *gRin*

All I am hoping for is that he had a wonderful birthday and that he enjoyed the one special day of his. Nobody ought not to celebrate their own birthday!


Happy Birthday Mr Yap!


love,

Mrs Yap





p/s: pictures are all stolen off Justin/Eddy/Kenwei's twitpic! =)


Monday, January 17, 2011

Fibroadenoma of mine

is about 3.8cm in diameter. Big isn't it?

So what is a fibroadenoma? Hmm.. google it or click here and you will find out more.

I went for my 11am appointment today with Dr Kwan and well, lets just say he had me checked thoroughly, sending me for an ultrasound to be done by a radiologist and then, well, the outcome, I will be send in to the OT after the CNY holidays to have it removed.

Dr Kwan did give me two options.

One is surgery and the other is to have the needle biopsy but being a scaredy cat, I don't think I can take a needle poking into my breast, even if they apply the anesthetic there so I took option one and would rather have him slit open a small part of the breast to remove the whole lump and send it for testing.

I would really have to give it to TMC for being a really nice, friendly, efficient hospital with helpful friendly staff all around.

Well, the removal of this breast mouse of mine will come with a price but Dr Kwan assured me that in time, the breast tissue will start growing again so... *phew* already nearly as flat as the airport runway with a few bumps, I might just be a deflated balloon. Sad case eh? well, but its all for the greater good and the peace of mind, knowing I removed something that can hurt me so much from inside.

I would be require to stay over a night at the hospital when time comes so he can have me under observation under post-op and so I can also have a proper rest without having to worry that Jaden will come headbang me anytime right after the op.

Hmm.. since the hospital is just like 6 minutes drive away from my place, I think I would most probably cab there and have someone fetch me home after. Gawd! Guess I will be the earliest one to be rolled into the operation theatre that day as mine will start at 830am.

Now, that these has been diagnosed and solution is on the way, it is time I get my insurance claim going so I won't be delayed back in the hospital when discharged.