A strand of Grey in 2014

At 30 going 31, I discovered I have already sported a strand of grey hair.

Oh no!

and also, I am now sporting a really really short haircut, first in my life! Having a boy-cut style.

I needed a change and since my hair was dropping like mad (post-natal delivery) and I am trying to keep myself away from going for rebonding and colouring so to have it short is the way to go.

I have always wanted to find out how I will look with such short hair and hey, I was not disappointed at all.

BUT before getting what I wanted, I had to go through 4 days of bad haircut days.

I went to the salon, asking for the Ginnifer Goodwin cut. The hairstylist of course replied me saying it is too short for me and she recommended another cut.

           

Seeing that she is a professional, I said I trusted her and let her snip away.

Little did I know, when I saw the final product, I could not even lift my head up. I was that embarrassed and I tried to do positive thinking, trying to convince myself that it was the first day cut that I may not be used to or maybe I could style it up...

Well, I did go with a friend and when she saw me, she did not look happy with my cut. I don't blame her. I was not happy either.

Came home, tried to convince myself still but I just could not take it anymore by the second day.

I was extremely upset, so I sat down and wrote an email to the salon telling them how I am upset and I would want a restyle.

It was Saturday evening then. On Sunday, there was still no reply from them, I facebooked messaged them there instead.

They are closed on Mondays.

On Tuesday, my friend has agreed to accompany me to go to the salon and ask them to rectify the issue but before we could make our way there, the hairstylist had called me, saying that she has received my email and if she could restyle it back for me.

Told her I will be there in half hour and there I was, being hair pampered again (hair wash and blow) and then.. the cut!

My friend sat down beside me, making sure I get the cut I wanted.. or at least something similar, seeing that my hair texture is rather thick and wiry.

So.. final product...

TADAAAAAA.....

I am rather pleased with it and well, hopefully I am hardworking enough to style it with wax. =)

What do you think about my new look?

11th April 2014

11th April 2014 is definitely a day for me to remember too.

It is the day my firstborn lost his first milk teeth. It is starting to make way for his adult teeth to emerge. 

My babyboy is all grown up!

11th April 2014 is also the day that I might have officially regret going into the salon to have my hair cut.. and very short too so I have no other way but to wait to let the hair grow out and restyle it and never again, shall I toy with the idea of having super short hair. 

I have actually send an email in to the salon to voice my displeasure at the haircut last night but they have yet to make any contact with me. Why do I feel that they will not even bother? I should have stuck with the hair cut that I initially wanted and if that did take place, I would not have been that upset because it was my choice but this.. it was a recommendation from the hairstylist and somehow, it just did not turned out as planned. :( I am really very upset.

The worse thing is that my hair takes a very very long time to grow and that pisses me off even more.

Why did I do it?

Talk about postpartum depression. Mine came late at month 4 after delivery, and it was all caused by this haircut. Never had I once stepped out of a salon feeling like this since once upon a time, back in 1997 where I still have a passport sized picture to remind me all about the bad haircut days I had to live through my teen years.

Mason, could not turn from his back to tummy if he wants to. He is a very demanding baby, wanting me to carry him most of the time or be beside him. He is rather attached to me. One thing good is that he has finally accepted Hubs and is not crying the second I leave him with his father.

BUT of course, Mason will still look for me after a while, only that he is now able to play longer minutes with the father. Maybe 15-20 minutes now compared to the less than 2 minutes before. 

Mason is starting to be very talkative, and he drools quite a bit.. putting whatever he can into his mouth now. :) Learning to grip and boy, he does grip hard when he wants to.. and especially at my hair too. *sigh*

Lately, Mason has not been really sleeping through the night. Instead, he will toss and turn every two hours, wanting to be fed. Either that is the reason or he just wants to suckle but sometimes I doubt its all that feeding or seeking for comfort is what he wants. Instead, I have noticed that he would toss and turn to find himself the space, kicking me off the bed if its needed to have his comfort sleep. There goes my sleep again.. 

Water ration has started at my area and it is really inconvenient not to have water at all. I get so stressed out each time water runs dry but at least, this time round, we have saved enough water ( I would like to think that I did) for toilet flushing. It just stresses me out bad when we are unable to flush the toilet after using it. Drinking water can still be bought, so that is ok. Cooking is really a challenge to me as I find myself unable to operate efficiently when I think about washing the produce or pots/pans and utensils.. darn!

During days that water are supposed to be back on, its an amazing race trying to do as much laundry as I can and also re-storing some water again.

Damn it, this water and haircut thing really stresses me out. Month of April, you don't seem like a very good month to me. 

March ramblings

8^th March 2014 is a day that I would remember for quite some time. If not, as long as I live.

Mason turns exactly 3 months old and that is also the day MH370 went missing on their route from KL-Beijing.

The whole of Malaysia and other countries are now praying hard for the return of MH370. 

Although today is already the 8^th day as we speak, chances of survival are really low but we are still praying, for at least the aircraft to be found so we all can have some inkling to what happened and also closure for the family members of the affected passengers and crew members on board.

A lot of countries have stepped in to help us in this search and rescue (SAR) mission to allocate the aircraft. From the South China Sea, the search has now extended over to the west coast of Peninsular Malaysia, into Straits of Malacca and the Andaman Sea.

The missing flight had more stories than just vanishing into thin air. Turned out, there were two passengers who managed to board the flight using false passports. Now, not only our country is being watched by others to hear some positive news of the SAR, we are under scrutiny for our country security lapse.

Hubby and I have been tuning in to every press conference that Astro Awani is airing live, hoping each day that we tuned in, we get to hear good news. Alas, that has yet to happen but our hope still stays.

Rain is scarce these days and the whole of KL/Petaling Jaya has started water rationing. *touch wood* To add on to the suffering of living with water ration, the city is shrouded with haze as high as 300 API for Klang district and 186 for Petaling district. 

This haze lasted for about a week and it was at its worst last three days. 

Funny how the MOE still have not declared schools to be closed when API hits 150. They only close schools in Klang because that was at a deadly hazardous level. I made Jaden stayed home for the past two days. I could not bring myself to allow my children to go out and breathe those nasties, although school did mentioned that they will be keeping the children indoors but hey, I rather keep mine at home. 

My eyes watered immediately the moment I stepped out of the house, how much worse would it be for my two young children?

Jaden, I really wished I am able to sit down with him to do work, to be much more patient with him but my temperament gets the better out of me. I am such a monster. With the little brother clinging on to me, wanting to be in my arms always, Jaden knows he has the advantage of misbehaving and I can’t do much to correct that behaviour of his. The only good I get out of it is that it forces him to eat independently, though I still have to spoonfeed him from time to time as I could not bear to deal with the spills on the floor, shirt and table.

Mason is observing all of us and I wonder what goes through his little mind. I want to be able to correct my parenting/teaching skills with him, to right things from wrong that I did with Jaden. Though this time, I hope that Jaden will be able to learn as well from his brother’s learning pace. It is so hard to sit both of them down together to play/read/work together. I can’t even find time to go to toilet to pee. That is how hand-tied I am with the little one, my koala bear.

15^th March

The Prime Minister just announced that the search has turned completely from its course, heading towards the Southern Corridor and the flight ended there, where it is a very remote area and no possible landing marks.

So now, the SAR team are racing against time to search for possible debris sightings and God willing, the blackbox so everyone affected can come to a closure.

Somehow through this MH370 incident, I am able to narrow down who I would like to have some intelligent talk with and not just someone who bangs the government for whatever they do.

I believe that our government is trying their best in coordinating this SAR exercise, and also seeing to the affected family members’ needs. One who just blabs and criticize our Malaysian government most probably have not heard from the affected family’s mouth on how well they are taken care of by MAS and the caregivers and how information is always provided to them first hand basis once it is verified so as not to bring or break their hope.

As for the Chinese, I cannot understand why they are asking questions or throwing blame that are really unprecedented, that no one saw coming. Did anyone see 911 coming? Did anyone criticize US for their SAR efforts and put blame on how the westerners for Osama’s attacks? Why did he do it in the first place? Did anyone in USA trigger him to come to that barbaric move? 

The Chinese are able to condemn us because we, Malaysians condemn our own country. I believe it is the time to stand united and let the government do their job, while we observe. Hey, this SAR exercise will really have quite a big say in us re-electing our government at the next election, provided no dirty tricks are played then.

April 1^st

Mason is turning 4 months old soon.

He is able to roll himself from tummytime to his back, selectively of course if he is feeling like it and also, from his back to tummy time. These actions are still a little assisted from time to time but we are getting there.

I had a run-in with dwindling milk supply last week for about two days. Got my heart palpitating as it reminded me of the same scenario when Jaden, too was three or four months old and I was feeling all sick, took meds and milk supply really went low on me. It always stresses me out because both my boys do not take to bottle so it is head-scratching on how to make sure that they stay well-fed. Luckily, I got to pinpoint my milk boosters and of course, eating like a pig.  Durian is a really good milk booster, followed by red bean buns/red bean dessert, lactating red date tea and pizza and rice. Yes, rice is essential in my daily diet to make sure that the tap doesn’t run dry.

Mason is starting to play too, with much more baby babbles and laughter and the mischievious antics that he seduces us with. He still only have eyes for his brother, then me and then only Hubs but hey, I am not complaining. It really is very helpful when I need to do some housework and Jaden is there to distract him.. for a few seconds at least.

Mason catnaps mostly during the day but his bedtime routine still remains the same. *phew* Usually I would have these little plans of getting to have some me time after putting Mason to bed at night.. and I fail right there. I would fall asleep too as soon as the little boy dozes off. Taking care of two boys with different needs and wants can really suck the energy out of you and all you want to do is lie down, close your eyes till the next daylight.

Jaden is a very sweet boy, still kissing his brother from time to time, holding his hands or pinching his brother’s fishball cheeks. *sigh* I really pray they grow up close knit and loving towards each other. 

Jaden has shown some signs of jealousy but not to the extend of hurting his brother. Instead, he will try to vie for attention, coming to sit on our lap, kissing us, hugging us or trying to play with us. 

Usually Hubs will be the main fellow Jaden turns to, then only me.. I will, too attend to him if I am not feeding, changing Mason’s diapers , bathing Mason or putting Mason to bed. But oh well, its tough trying to balance out the attention right now.. will get easier with time and hoping Jaden won’t shut himself up on me then.