Don't Ask

So, the Hubs asked me what I want for my birthday this year?

I thought hard.

There are just too many things that I want but .. I guess I know how to prioritize the thing that I want most of all for now .. for this year and to make the welcoming of 2013 a better one.

I wanted to go to Universal Studios last year to sit on the rides. In the end, I did not get to do that because my girlfriends did not think it was worth the money as it was a raining so we ended up having wine the night before, shopped at H&M.sg for the boy's clothes the next morning, had tonkatsu ramen and come back home to KL. (As you can see, my birthday wants are mostly always scrapped!)

So what is it that I want?

If one is to read the list, one would have puke blood right there and then because what I want is really really materialistic.

Hey, birthdays only come once a year and for a person like me, a birth date means a lot to me.

I don't put my birthday on facebook because I don't want just anybody to wish me Happy Birthday.

From there, I would know who actually bothers about me, care enough just to wish me those two words that will make me the happiest woman.

Of course, I would very much like the idea of how birthday surprises (friends get-together/ dinner party) could be plan for me.. but then again, its just an idea. That will never happen a lifetime for me, unless I plan one myself and that won't be a surprise no more.

No, I don't like the idea of celebrating my birthday in a club, downing drinks and getting drunk but  chilling out at a nice place with good wine and close friends would be best.

BUT then again, who is going to drive me home after that? Who is going to put the boy to bed? Who is going to wake up and prepare breakfast for the boy the day after? 

So .. IDEA is NOT IDEAL afterall.

SCRAPPED !

Then, I love a good birthday cake. No, wait, good beautiful birthday cupcakes. My favourite -the rosette looking ones with vanilla base. Not just any cupcakes, not those supersweet ones, like those found in the cupcake shops but those order from homemade ones .. I have always ordered cupcakes for others and the only cake I got ordered for me was last year, when my bestfriend presented me with a big Elmo cake. That was super sweet of her to specially ordered it for me.

I guess, I won't be having my dream cake this year too either. 

Maybe that fruit cocktail cake from Hokkaido bakery could just do the trick then. I love their fruit cocktail cake too.

A day to myself? A specially arranged spa treatment with full body massage, followed by manicure and pedicure and a good hair treatment after .. and a nice romantic dinner for two, or maybe for a glutton like me, a good buffet place where I can eat to my heart's content without having to worry about eating superfast, or what the boy can eat .. and a movie after just to end the night.

Someone that will offer to help babysit the boy, to feed him his dinner .. 

IDEA is NOT IDEAL too.. because I don't have anybody here that will be able to do that for me. Nobody can really handle the boy.

Selfish thought eh, me being the mother yet I want the day to be spent not with the boy? and that makes me feel so GUILTY so yea, SCRAP THAT !

I would love him to blow the candles out together with me though, and sit with me when I make my birthday wish.

Then.. after how I want to celebrate my birthday, what present do I really want? Those tangible ones, those that I can actually touch and feel and say, hey, its a birthday present for me. :)

Well, FIRST, I wanted half a house. ( Not in my lifetime that would come true unless I work my ass and use my own money OR get lucky and join competitions that offers houses as grand prizes.) -SCRAPPED-

SECOND, I was eyeing a bag and asked a friend who was travelling to Italy then to help me get it. Alas, he was too tied up with work and could not find time to head out to shop for me. (don't ask bout the pricing :p)
 -SCRAPPED-

THIRD, I wanted this one watch since I started working and was introduced to that particular brand. They no longer make it in the collection I wanted but then again, there is the Linea or Hampton that looks equally as pretty but pricey but do I really really really want it right now? I can do with it later but is it something that I want NOW? so -SCRAPPED-

I chanced upon this FOURTH item while I was browsing a blog. It hit me that I was in a similar condition as that blogger and I may even need it much more badly than that blogger and we are the same age. I really thinks the blogger looks good with this FOURTH item I think I need badly .. but Hubs might have a different take on this .. 

SO ...

lets just go with maybe I will just skip by my last birthday in my 20's as quietly as can be .. and pray that I can usher in the BIG THREE with a party but then again, there will never be such a thing. 

I will just go to bed every night now, counting the days to my birthday and then just be grateful to be alive this 29 years of my life, getting to see my son grow and improving in all sort of ways..