There has been quite some ups and downs in my life for 2012 and, funnily, we have only enter into month 3 of the calendar. Still a loooong way to go to say that I think I would like to think that only the better would be taking their respective places in the months to come for the year.
So to begin more on a positive note, the ups of my life so far in these three months is that we got to see really progresive results with Jaden.
He has been showing signs of improving and having that hunger to learn more in him these two three months. I am glad I have been pushing myself, although sometimes I tend to feel like resting, I know I can res later in life when he gets out of his 'tunnel'. Right now we are only at about step 2 and there are so many more steps to climb in order to achieve to where we want to be for him.
His screaming, his rejections towards the supplements at times when he is acting up and my persistent forceful ways to make him eat his supplements are really paying off well, so far. I understand that there will be times when he will be quite a non-respondent and that is when I have to decipher what is it that is not working and find new diets maybe, add new supplements or take some out and replace with others, add in a few therapies maybe to make his learning more fun to keep him wanting to learn more... and there are times when I must accept the regression humbly and say, this is just temporary because I am going to do the best I can to help him progress from there. Its ok to fall, because we will get up back on our feet and stagger on till we hit the finishing line together.
We are now adding in more new programs in his therapy. We are now starting to teach him to match things by understanding what the object it. That, we are moving on form matching the same things, more variety, requires more thinking and digging inside his little wonderful brain of his.
and then, there is also the preparation, to ensure that he shall have a smooth transition into playschool-kindy, although he might be placed in a class that are much younger than his peers but that does not matter. As long as that one day comes and I get to see him be in school, learning just like any other children should be, I think I will be a beaming proud happy mother. As long as he is willing to learn.
We have now successfully introduced the potty to him and he understands that it is alright to pee in the potty. Therefore, in just about 3-4 days, he has learnt to hold his pee and only let go when we bring him to the potty. Our next step is to teach him how to pull his pants down in time so he does not wet his pants when he stands next to the potty and needs to go. At least the understanding is there, I am sure we will get there somehow.
He has also shown signs of accepting the idea to poop in the potty and that one day, he actually sat quietly and poop in the potty and clapped his hands and smiled when he finished his business. I have never been a happier mother that day looking at that brown pulp looking back at me from the potty, albeit the smell that followed though.
I like one quote that most mothers would say when doing biomed, and that is, one step forward, two steps backward. We are all doing a tango. If you are going through what I am going through, then you would totally really understand this statement and see some humor to it. Really, when you think you have his yeast issues under control and hes performing so well, and then suddenly the stimming appears! OH NO! WHYYYYY you would scream but then again, yeast? Its nothing that bad compared to Gut Issues or brain nerves or what they call methylation. Yes, I am doing stuff I never dreamt I would get involved in, especially when it comes to all these scientific medical stuff. Thankfully these are still in language form which I can read and read till I understand. If these all comes in numbers, oh boy, I would be really put up the white flag for I am never one that is good with numbers. Never.
Tantrums are aplenty these days. I wonder if its due to me not disciplining him that often like last time and he forgets the taste of my cane or he is just testing me out again. Well, one thing for sure, this is something I will never let him off easily because I really believe in the saying, "Melentur buluh biarlah dari rebungnya"
Thats the update so far.. other than me introducing foods like green curry and kurma into his diet. :)
