Hard decisions

I was talking to this high school friend of mine who is now staying back in Medan with her husband and family. She has a son that just turned ONE and his name is Jayden. She also has a sister who is residing in Singapore with a daughter, Giselle, who turned ONE in April. So that means, our children are of the same age group and thus, there we go sharing notes on our children's developments and me, asking how to make porridges that will be accepted by the yim-chim Jaden. But its all okay, cause I was told that kids can be quite picky. One day they love their food, the next day, they think you are feeding them some bitter concoctions.

I was feeding Jaden his breakfast multigrain rice cereals with smashed bananas in them. He seemed to love it yesterday and can't get enough of it. Today, he wiped his rice cereals all over his face and walker and spread it like jam on a bread over his hands. You say angry a not? Scolded him right there and then and made him finished up the rest before scooping him into the bathroom to take a bath. Trust me when I say he smells like a drunken walking banana!

I had a discussion with Hubby a few days ago about what I want to do next year. I want to come out and work again or take up a Masters in Communication (part time) from a local University. It was either or but Hubby says why not I stay home and take care of the boy. He says that a boy needs one of his parents to supervise his growing up. If not, they would run wild. What do you think? I don't have a trustable in-law which I can hand Jaden over for daycare, my parents (my mom is not soundly suitable to care for a child) and my dad is just far up north. Babysitters? I heard of horrible stories and had seen some case where those kids get whacked red. Hubby and I am not trusting our child in their hands. What about daycare? But there are kids who are bound to catch colds and then my poor son would catch the virus too.. *sigh* What can I do? This is going to be one hell of a hard decision for me, I badly want to study back and I also want to get back into the public relations world and I also want my son to have a trustable person to take care of him while Hubby and I are away at work. How I wish I have a grandma like Iz's.

Anyway I have a whole year ahead of me to think about it... hopefully I will make the right decision.

Random photos of Jaden

Jaden who just woke up -note the hairstyle

Jaden trying out various facial expressions

Jaden's doing -pull and break and runaway act!

Sprouting out

So many things happened but I got a little too lazy to post because before my arse could warm the chair, it has to get up and about to serve my little big boss.

Jaden is now pulling down files from the cabinet and is very proud of his doings. Hubby and I have to move everything that is on the second level to top so just to not let Jaden pull anything out and ter-hurt himself. Last time we moved all things from the first level to second level is to avoid letting Cheekie and Cheeko bite and now, another level of two up to avoid Jaden's wandering hands.

His pearly whites are starting to sprout from the gums. Just a little bit of whites showing on top of his lower gums. So cute. Can't wait for them to grow out of the gum but somehow that means I will get bitten. He has already started to bite me without the gums. So if he has teeth then, habis-lah I!

He has gone back hating his porridges. He only likes his rice cereals. HOW HOW HOW? Its quite frustrating when you take a few hours to prepare and cook the porridge only to be rejected by him. "BUEKKKKK!" is the grateful response you get when you feed him. How la not to feel disappointed with myself? Am I such a bad cook afterall or is he just not used to the porridge texture and taste?

o.Oh and did I mention that Jaden knows how to response to "Come here Jaden!!" and there his two little feet scurrying over to wherever you are? So cute!! He even follows wherever Hubby and I go. Now, he is the supervisor at home. Supervising every single of our movements in the house. Everyday is a new day to learn about each other -Jaden and us.

Would you be back four months later?

Shes gone back to Penang. She is on here way and should be reaching home in an hour half. This time round, its not a tear-jerking emotional departure from her. Maybe because I feel relieved that she is able to take care of herself, at least she places high importance in hygiene and pretty little things.

Since I started working, I don't remember my mother buying stuff for me anymore other than food sometimes that she wants to share with me but yesterday when I took her out shopping, she bought me shoes! SHOES! It was as if I were still a little girl and mummy has to pay for stuff. I feel so bad but then again, she said insist that its for my birthday present and that I must take it. So well, how can a girl resist pretty shoes when she sees them right? Anyway they are at 50%.

Jaden actually loves her company and there is someone that is constantly speaking Mandarin to him. He needs to learn how to speak Mandarin kan afterall hes a Chinese boy. Hubby and I fail to speak to him in Mandarin although both of us knows the language. Sux big time! Don't even bring up Cantonese. The only time Jaden hears Cantonese is when he is at his grandfather Yap's place. Just hoping he would be able to pick up the language as he grows. Mandarin is becoming just as essential as English these days to survive.

I have not been very good and I am not proud of it...

Mother has been staying with me since Tuesday last week. Quite a lot have happened since she was here. The house was on a constant cleaning process, thanks to my mother. What she does in a day equals to what Hubby and I do in a week, maybe more. Haven't brought her out much except to One U and Ikea.

I must admit I have not been a very good girl but I try to meet up to her wants when she is down here. Just sometimes, my impatience get in the way or my norm is disturbed. *sigh* It is something in me I have to change.

Finally I visited Cupcake Chic to try out their 'shoutout' Onde Onde cupcakes. I wanted to get the Marshmallow ones too but alas, it was sold out. There were only the Chocofee and Onde Onde left. I was surprised to see a whole tray of Onde Onde left when I went to the shop at about 930pm on a Sunday. I mean, werent they supposed to be the bestsellers? I guess not afterall. Anyway, overall, I would not mind going for second rounds of the cupcakes but its a tad little too expensive to be consumed like every other week. A normal cake would have lasted me 3-4 days to finish whereas a 1/2 dozen box of cupcakes can be finished either in a day or two.

I think I would like to buy my mom jelly cakes to try out this time. She has yet to taste Jelly Q's cake yet although I know Hubby would make noise over jellies being sold at such an unreasonably price. I agree in a way but sometimes, its just for trying out sake and my mother do love special things.. sometimes.. if she knows how to eats it. Just like the Chocofee cupcake I bought for her, she only ate the inside, she threw away the toppings because she said it was made of MILO and she don't take MILO. That incident of course pissed the shit out of me because seeing RM4.50 went down the drain just like that without getting appreciated hurts me. Sometimes I really feel, my parents can be quite a country bumpkin seeing the hometown they come from. Don't even talk about my dad. Hes worse off than my mother. Other than Chinese, Malay and Indian food (Malaysian style), he does not know how to appreciate others. Thai, maybe just a little since my hometown is at Thailand's border but its a waste if he was to be brought to SushiKing for sushis and wasabe, pizzas and spaghettis, TGI Fridays and Chillis. *sigh*

Mother and I bought new shoes from Vincci sales and she decided to wear them yesterday when we went One U. I noticed she was walking slow and funny after a while and I asked if anything was wrong. She says no but has this look on her. So I got pissy because I thought she was in one of her 'behaviours' again. I was already on my nerves when we took her out for lunch and instead of trying out every dish we ordered, she stuck to a few and didn't quite seem to like it. Hurt and angry, so the slow walk from her even added to my impatience of dealing with her. Only at night later on, I found out that she had blisters on her toes from the new shoes. I felt felt so bad. Very very bad. I told her not to buy those shoes, I already showed her a really nice pretty pair of shoes which I deemed to be comfortable and stylish at the same time but she refused to listen. She just went frenzy over every coloured shoe she can find. Thank god I stopped her in time from buying up the whole VIncci and their bags. Guess ehe had better wear back her old shoes then. Aarrgghh!!!!!

Jaden loves my mother's company. He will always be ever-ready with a smile for her. He likes to play with her and often I catch him having 'conversations' with my mother. Now that he can move effiiciently in his walker, he is touring the whole house. He even wants to chase Cheekie and Cheeko in his walker. The pulling of stuff at his reach level has begun. The nightmare is starting. Everything that he can reached out to with something protruding, there he goes pulling it with all his might. Often will, he succeeds in bringing it down and will be rather pleased and proud of his achievements.

o.Oh and I finally got my hands on the Munchkin Mesh Feeder for Jaden. I have seen and read about it in other mummies' blogs and saw the positive outcome of it so I went searching for it in Jusco last night and found it. So happy! Gonna start by putting mashed bananas for Jaden to try it. Speaking of food, Jaden finishes his commercialized rice cereals really fast now. A packet of rice cereals could prolly last him for a week if it is a big pack. If its a small pack, it lasts him for a bout 4-5 days? Guess its time to invest in the tinned can ones rather than the boxed ones.

Mother will be going back to Penang this Friday. I know I would turn waterworks as soon as I turn my back from the bus, walking back to my car. *sigh* I will miss her and probably only see her in four months time. =( BUT as soon as Jaden is fit to travel, I will want to take him back to Penang for at least a week. He needs to get close to his grandparents. Afterall, my parents loves him and do care about him compared to his other grandma, who has not once asked about her grandson since she took off back to Melaka to celebrate her eldest son's birthday. Jaden will not be denied love from his grandparents and family love from my side of relatives. Jaden has a lot of cousins, uncles and aunties whom I know would love to meet and play with him. *sigh* Jaden is going to be 9 months old in 11 days time. So fast!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINAREE!!!!

Dear Linaree,


Today is your birthday and I am unable to greet you like how I used to when we were staying together. I know I still have not fried you goreng pisang for your birthday as you requested. Trust me, I tried back in 2006 but it turned out disastrous. So I shall just buy it for you next time when I see you. I love you and I hope you have a great birthday this year!

With much love,
Your Emiryroo

Its TOTAL MADNESS

Its been so long since I last drove out on Fridays near lunchtime. Its TOTAL MADNESS I tell you. Blood pressure will rise with all those old folks driving like its Sunday mornings, inconsiderate drivers who park their car at the side of the main road just to WAIT and PICK their kids up from school, and people who is totally so CHICKEN on the road. If not for Hubby who needs to go for a meeting, I would have stayed home from all the madness. Its takes me nearly 1 hour just to reach home from Kelana Jaya LRT! Whereas in 15 minutes, I could be home sweet home! Bah!