Can't believe that it is already April and mid April that is .. how time just zoom pass us and I realized that so little things have been achieved and I am definitely not happy. Not happy with how I am handling things in regards to recovering Jaden.
I have been seriously procrastinating and putting off trying to log on to the computer, which can make me totally plastered to it, and before I before I know it, its 4 hours already wasted just sitting in front of the computer and instead of doing what I am supposed to be doing, i.e: researching more ways/biomed to help Jaden / learning tools. There I will be busy surfing facebook, reading on friends' updates and kaypoing through pictures, browsing blogshops online and no-brainer blogs of people who puts up more self-worshipping pictures than words.. *sigh* I can be such a klutz, bimbo and a 'blonde' most times.
Anyway, let me fill in on what happened these few months that is rather memorable to me.
As all of my friends who would have known by now, Jaden has started schooling in a kindergarten that opened up a class especially just for special needs children and that really made me very happy when he was accepted.
He has been doing great so far. The teachers are teaching him how to be more independent, and I can see the positive changes he brought home with him from school. He loves music/dance class although he still have to be prompted to follow the movements taught but hes mostly full of smiles whenever I see him inside the music room.
The boy loves his crayons. He loves the paint. Colour pencils may not be his favourite but I can see that art do calm him down. Jaden's sensory issue with glue/ pasting have changed for the better and he is pretty much ok with it now, without putting up a struggle whenever the teachers ask him to paste stuff and he gets some glue on his hands.
He has baked us a second batch of cookies from school and this time round, it is so much better tasting than his first attempt. That I can totally relate to as he was very resistant in touching the ingredients, putting up a fight, crying and being very angry but now, the teachers said that he was so calm and did as he was told and did not show signs of any icky-ness towards the flour with water, kneading the dough, cracking the eggs.. well, he shaped the cookies alright. The cookies had his finger dent marks all over. LOL
He used to be rather nonchalent when his classmate wants to share his food but as the months passes, when his classmate asked if she could share his food, he quickly stuffed his food into his mouth ... or when I sometimes do put extra snacks for his classmate in another tupperware, and he has a few pieces left in his own tupperware, he would reach out for his classmate's before he finishes his own. In a way, its good and bad. He is aware, and using his brains to think.. bad, well, hes being selfish. Lately, what I heard was he has learned how to steal his classmate's snacks to eat when they are not looking. *sigh*
The overall comment that came in from all his teachers and therapists, is Jaden is much more a calmer person compared to months ago where his rebelling temper is atrocious.
As for me,
I have cut down alot of being K-pop crazy.. losing touch a bit here and there because I hardly do have time to log on to the computer, and also me, trying to refrain from being a slave to the comp. Which means, I am missing out on a lot of K-dramas as well, which was quite a big part of my life last year.
My addiction to shopping online is still strong but since I have not been parking my ass in front of the computer, it is rather dangerous because once I do, I just start sending off emails or order forms. >_<
Mornings after sending Jaden to school, is now my 'me' time. When Jaden first started going to school in January, all I wanted to do was to come home as soon as I dropped in so I can continue to sleep but now, I use the time to run errands, maybe do grocery shopping, indulge in some good filling breakfast once in a while by myself or with mummy friends, taking 'Fatty' for a car wash, grooming sessions (usually just eyebrow threading). I find that doing all these in the morning by myself, is much faster than the times where I have to bring Jaden with me. Stress-free too at that! :p
I no longer, can just declare holiday whenever but having to stick to Jaden's school calendar before making decisions to go back to Penang to visit my family. We did just that end of March, when he had a week off school and it was wonderful!
One of my school friend of 22 years came back with her husband and son, whom I have not seen at all, only pictures and had a great time catching up with her and other friends, and of course, best of all, being at home with my dad and mom who just pampered Jaden and I 24/7.
This trip round, I ate more than ever and found a new food love in town -Joe's coconut jelly. I think I ate 2-3 coconut jelly on average a day for that past one week I was back home in town.
Of course, how can I miss mentioning that one of my bestfriend from college, who came to KL all the way to stay a night so she can bring her daughters to meet me and Jaden. Her reason, because she misses me. I felt like an ass-friend for not seeing her daughters once before since she gave birth to them. I only saw her when she was twice pregnant but never after. It was so good to catch up seeing her and looking at her being such a happy mother with two lovely daughters.
The holiday was of course completed with the best way ever for me. A round II concert of my most favourite idol -LeeHom. It was also a getaway too, to Genting for 2days 1night. I prepared Jaden's food the night before and brought up my small slow cooker so I can heat his food up for him to eat for all his meal times. Convenient?
I had one of the best seat in the house that night and the concert was a blast. I have to really thank my hunyeebunny for helping me to arrange it. It was so good to see her again after soooooo long and also, enjoying the very sight of that handsome musically talented idol of mine.
Lately, I have been spammed with photos or announcements of friends or people who got pregnant or giving birth and these used to be just happy news to me. As in, wow, congratulations but lately, I feel a pang of jealousy towards these women. Happy jealousy I mean because, shit, I think my maternal clock is kicking in again, wanting to have all a tiny pair of hands holding on to mine, a baby to cuddle and a sibling for Jaden to fuss around with or fuss around Jaden. *sigh* But, like what I will always answer.. do I want a second child? Yes but I am also very very scared at the same time. There will always be this risk and its a very very big risk so if I do one day announce happy news, you know I am one happy mother-to-be but if its not God's will, I am also fine with it as I am satisfied and happy for having my growing-up-so-fast baby boy.
This is practicallly my report for the first quarter of 2013 but I hope I can update more frequently than this. Age is adding up and my memory ain't that good as last time and I need this blog to document the moments precious to me.
Bear with me would you, while I try to adjust and manage my time better. I am trying !!
